I Wished For Feelings

And the universe obliged

I wished on a star for
My old kind of feelings
To return -- (All of them, 
Not just these 
Jagged, mean ones
That seemed to have
Copped a squat, then
Read law on such things).

And so the universe obliged.

entrails liquid shimmer 
terrors activated  
eyelid eczema, palm
prickling, heart trickling
acid, clench onto
thisthisthis, feet into 
sand sinking while 
the waves run on out,
pull away
everything pulls
away -- thisthisthis
heartthrobbing, 
frozen thrashing,
slow, a slow dissolve 
into arousal -- I am what

still, alive I am still 
Want, in concrete
Footsteps. 

Drown me
Here in the way
I feel feel again feel
Feel feel.