When did I begin?

An argument against beginnings

When did I begin?
a Buddhist argues 
there's no logic to
mortal beginnings, 
I just am 
and ever shall be,
as I always was.
now fish in the ocean
now bird in the sky
consciousness now less
then more -- 
what vast eternities 
go back back back
inside this limited frame?

outside there may be boundaries,
but whose? I rest easier 
letting go the temptation 
of worry, the prison of lack.
boundless life unfolds 
(haven't you sensed it?
haven't you known?)
hold on loosely
but don't let go --
I don't tremble:
I am the shiver.
thus, a container conveys me, 
for now.

not everyday do I believe it.
somedays, I dream of hugging
my mom again,
sitting at a heavenly table 
with her and my aunts,
voices tumbling over the cards --
are they there now?
aren't they here now?
the past takes a new shape
when I hold it today
when I breathe another
life into it:
dawn breaks.
morning comes:
another day.

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April 4th, today’s poem was in response to a prompt from my writing group

Salt Tooth Writers

: Write about resurrection. This writing group has made my life so much better.

I hope you are enjoying NaPoWriMo, wherever your are experiencing it. One of my favorite things is finding poems in the wild, literally. Poet and friend Jamie Heller is one of the writer featured at the Poetry Walk in Strang Park, Johnson County, KS.